Intro.

Hello and welcome to my blog!

I'm a nineteen year old girl -soon twenty-.
I've failed school countless of times, I'm still not attending university and struggling to even have the motivation to get there.
I'm currently in a relationship full of doubts. Not doubts on him caring for me but him thinking enough of me etc.
At my dad's place I fail to even get to sleep because of fears of demons on ghosts trying to kill me at night -oh silly me-.
I'm struggling to believe if I'm depressed and whether I'll ever find happiness.
I have no hobbies are something that really picks my interest.
The amount of failed friendships I actually worked upon with all I could are countless.
I fear that my parents have no eye for me but only for my younger sister who seems to be more beautiful than me, more talented, more dedicated, despite her rather aggressive and rude behavior is surrounded by attention, etc.
Summary: I'm a girl with lots of fears and struggles. Hence the tittle of this blog.

Why am I telling you all of this?
First of all because I spend my time reading on how to get over such fears and stumbled upon an article that told me in order to get more confidence I should note down what bothered me and try and fix it.
I haven't thought of making a blog until now, I haven't been able to sleep lately because of the fears and spend my time awake crying about the silliest things.
So here I finally am, writing his blog at 4am, better do something productive -taking action- than staying awake wondering what I could do and end up doing absolutely nothing and getting no sleep on top of that.
A second reason is just, I found comfort in knowing I'm not the only one feeling like this.
And I'm a hundred pro cent sure others feel exactly like I am.

I swear this article sounded much better in my mind but hey, I tried.